Circles

I need to get this out.
I don't know what going on.
I feel broken.
It's like my life is rewinding, I'm having feelings for people I haven't talked to in ages.
I'm at the same point I was last year in certain friendship.
I feel afraid, I feel guilty, I'm in denial.
The Earth is spinning backwards.
It's not meant to be in retrograde, it is definitely not meant to be like this.
Wanting things that you can't have is unhealthy.
Being scared and lost for words won't get me anywhere.
I need to snap out of this and snap out of it fast.
Not wanting is pointless.
Not trying sets up failure.
Not apologising won't make things better.
I don't know what I'm meant to say sorry for.
I don't know what I've done.
Life is such a mess.
I just want to scream and pray it will be clean in the morning.
I want a break.
I want, I don't know what I want.
Boys are confusing, friendships with people totally different from you are confusing, school is confusing, money is confusing.
I'm confused.
Leave me alone, I want to be alone.
But, I don't know if that's what I want.
I want to talk.
I want to cry.
I need a hug.
This makes no sense. I don't make sense. Everything doesn't make sense.
It's going round in circles, not only this blog, but everything.
I'm back where I was a year ago.
Same people, similar situations.
I'm just not sure.
What's wrong with me?
Why so many questions?
I want to cry, it's not an answer though.
I just want you to be there for me, is that to hard to ask.
I need to take my mind of things, but my mind just keeps circulating about the same things.
I hate circles.
I guess this is a call for help.
Please help me.
Please help me sort this out.
I'm just so sick and tired of everything right now.
Need
to
calm
down.
Need
to
slow
down.
And if I tell myself it will be alright, it will.