Holidays

Thankyou to Emi, Claud, MK, Millz, B, Lol, Madi, Jacinta, Emma, Lala, Bec, Bec, Erin & Gabe. You made my birthday special, fun, something that I will remember. I'm glad that you guys had fun and I'm glad that I could share my sweet 16th with you.
I was anticipating my party, having those feelings that something would go wrong, that turning 16 will change me. But, that party made me realise that having an Alice in wonderland theme; something that I have loved through my childhood and something that I still love, it reiterated to me that getting older doesn't mean that I can have fun. That I can't laugh anymore, that I can't dress up anymore, that I can't play games anymore. It most certainly does not mean any of those things and I proved that, my friends helped me prove that and I'm happy. I'm still the same person, just older.
I always do this though, worry about silly things. So for now, no more worrying. Just gonna use these holidays to do what I need. To do the things that I have been avoiding and the things that have been pushed a side. Things like tidying up my room and fixing up my photos on my walls, practicing piano and trying to learn endings to songs, completing chapters in my theory book, going shopping and buying clothes, having a sleep over with my best friend. I just want to take some time out and sit in my favourite spot and listen to music and just relax, I don't really wanna go out or organise group outings, maybe just some one on one but I just want to concentrate on me for once. Not bend over backwards to please everyone, but just to chill and be happy. Be content with my life and feel satisfied.